Saturday, 1 September 2012

Coming Out of Hybernation


Photo Copyright: Maggie May

I feel as though I am awakening from a nightmare. Slowly, little by little, I am beginning to be able to sit for longer periods of time without one side of my body going into painful spasms. I have a slightly bigger range of movement and I can now lie in bed all night and get up by myself. Poor Harry has been to Hell and back because he has had to do everything for me even though he is far from well himself. He has been a wonderful help to me and has never lost patience when he had to get up to rescue me sometimes for the third time in the night. 
We take so much for granted. When I was really incapacitated, I used to watch other people bend down to retrieve something from the floor, scratch a foot, stroke an animal and all the other things that people do without a second thought and I really wondered if I'd ever be able to do those things again. If it wasn't for Harry, then I would have had to put my rabbits into care because I couldn't clean them out or do anything for them. I shed many tears over this and it is remarkable how they adapted to Harry's very different ways of doing things and how he grew to really love them while they bonded with each other.
 I think it will take a good while to be able to do all the things that I used to do and I will be lucky if I ever get back to *normal*.
Friends rallied round and made all sorts of offers and little gestures that helped when I was at my lowest ebb. I am so grateful to those people.
The Council have installed extra stair rails and all sorts of equipment to help me to keep in my own home. I think it is less costly for them to do this than having me in hospital and I'm still waiting for my physiotherapist appointment to come through.
I am waiting for an appliance to come through the post that will help me to put my socks on. Have you ever thought how house bound you'd be if you couldn't get shoes, socks/stockings on?

 I have been reading other peoples' blogs more over the last week or so and have even left the odd comment on some.
Hoping to be able to spend more time in the cyber world as I get stronger and if I haven't visited your blog yet, then I shall try to do so very soon.
Many thanks for your faithfulness and good wishes and your obvious relief and joy that my scan was clear of cancer.


25 comments:

Mimi said...

Maggie, I'm thrilled to read this!
We do take so much for granted: on a few occasions when I've "put out" my back and been unable to do little things like putting on my socks, I've had the same thoughts as you.
Word of warning...don't overdo it!

Formerly known as Frau said...

I'm so sorry your health has been so rough I hope and pray you will be back to yourself very soon. And healthy wishes to Harry as well. Take care ((hugs))

Brian Miller said...

i am glad you are finding your freedom a bit more...and glad they are making the accomodations for you as well to live life as you can....continued healing and prayer to you...

Irene said...

I'm so glad that you are on the way of recovery. I was hoping to hear that very soon. I'm sorry you've been so miserable but glad that Harry has been such a help to you. I hope you will be completely pain free soon and able to move around like a young girl. xox

Suburbia said...

Gosh Maggie that all sounds awful, I do feel for you and I'm so glad things are looking up.
Best wishes as always
S x

Carol said...

Oh, Maggie.....you have been through way too much. I'm happy to read you are on the road to recovery. You have been blessed with a dear sweet husband. Thank God for Harry!!

I will be keeping you in my daily prayers until I see you are back on your feet. xoxoxoxox

FeltByRae said...

Oh Maggie, I am so glad to hear you are little on the mend at least (also joyous over your post about the Big C) I can empathise a little at least especially re the socks... when my back 'locks' getting my pants and socks on in the morning is no joke, although I am sure it looks hilarious! Bestest wishes to you xxx

Celia said...

Hope you make it to the Physio people soon. Glad to hear you are getting mobile again. I've experienced this and it is quite shocking to find yourself helpless this way. May each day give you more mobility and less pain. Hugs.

Coey said...

Miss Maggie,
I am sending all my love. From knowing where you come from to imagining being back there. I am so so sorry that you have gone through all of this.
I have been wondering about you for a while. I hope you know my thoughts have been with you.

Lots of Love!

dianefaith said...

So glad to see you back here! It is hard to keep going emotionally when you have chronic pain. You're a strong woman that you've battled through enough to come back here and write. Looks like the climb forward is well underway.

SandyCarlson said...

I am glad you are feeling better. Keep on!

Rose said...

So good to see you back, Maggie, and I hope this means you are on the mend. It sounds as though you have been through a very rough time, and your frustration is understandable. I think we all take things for granted until we lose them; you are helping to remind us all to be thankful for our health and the simple things in life. Best wishes for a continued recovery.

Rose

Ayak said...

Am so sorry you are still suffering so much Maggie, and bless Harry for making life a little easier for you. I'm glad you haven't had to get rid of the rabbit..you would have hated that.

Here's hoping you will continue to improve a bit more each day.

Lots of Love L xx

Crystal Jigsaw said...

I can imagine it will be difficult not being able to put socks and shoes on if you're living alone, something many of us will not think about.

Sounds like Harry has been an absolute godsend, and so lovely that he's bonded well with the rabbits.

Take good care of yourself,
CJ x

Jeni said...

It always gives me a lift of my spirit to read your posts and especially so when you write about improvements happening for you! That's terrific, Maggie! Just keep at it and more good things are sure to follow close in the wake!

Happy Frog and I said...

I'm sorry that you have been and still are in pain but I'm pleased to hear that you are starting to feel a bit better. Try not to overdo it though. Thanks so much for the comment you left me, that was lovely of you. x

Jackie said...

I wanted to send my special friend a special hug...
Consider it done, Maggie.
I love you!
J.

Suldog said...

I'm so glad you're returning to some semblance of normal! Nice of The Council to put in the extra equipment, even if it was done to save costs. Better than nothing, eh?

Saying another prayer for you! And for Harry!

CiCi said...

You have been through so much in life, so much pain and disappointment and you continue to push forward and begin again. You are strong and amazing. No wonder many people who live near you are willing to help you, are wanting to help you. You and Harry deserve a break now. I hope you both can be comfortable and able to do the things that are normal to you both.

cheshire wife said...

Good to see you back blogging again. We do take so much for granted.

I hope that you will soon be fully recovered.

Hilary said...

Good to see you, dear Maggie and I'm glad you're achieving more mobility. Harry sounds like such a treasure and he has the bonus of finding himself bonded with your sweet rabbits.

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Dimple said...

Hi Maggie,
I have been off the blogosphere for some time and have missed your updates. I'm so glad that your pain is not cancer, but so sorry that you have been in such pain for so long! I'm glad you have family and friends nearby to help you. I'm also glad that Harry and your bunnies were able to get to know each other.
I hope you are soon feeling a lot better!

Retiredandcrazy said...

Maggie, you are so inspirational. You have been through so much and yet you still keep positive. You and Harry are both in my prayers.