Photo Copyright: Maggie May
I expect that you are all wondering what it is like to go through radiation treatment.
I can honestly say that it is not as bad as chemo...... not by a long chalk.
However, when I went through chemo, I was ill for a week or so and then started to pick up each day until the next infusion.
Going everyday for radiation treatment might not be as harsh as that but it can make one feel extremely tired all the time and can cause flare-ups of pain.
As my coccyx is involved, it can get really painful. Bone pain can be excruciating so I am still on some meds for it but trying to cut down regularly depending how I feel.
The department I go to is very busy and people of all ages come here from miles around. I'm lucky that I don't have far to go.
The saddest thing is to see little children going through chemo and there are also many younger people than me and a good few are brought in on trollies. This all makes me feel I shouldn't be grumbling.
One day my appointment was cancelled because one of the machines broke down. I have been assured that I will get an extra session at the end of my treatment so there are no problems concerning that.
No one has any idea what is going on in my body. I have been told to concentrate on getting through the treatment and live for the day.
Nothing about my life is certain. I could make myself ill with worry. However, most of the time I am too tired to think too hard or go beyond today.
I do a little job or two each day. Sometimes I can only manage to clean one shelf of the fridge. Other days I romp through the house or go for a walk with no problem. There is no rhyme or reason for this...... no way I can tell in advance how I am going to be. I tend not to make any really important arrangements because I might not be able to keep them.
I am drifting through life and trying not to care.
However, I am glad to be alive.
The sunflowers were brought round by Hetty, a good friend. They lasted a long time.
They were bright and cheerful in my front room.
I am over halfway through the treatment now and hoping non of the terrible side affects (that I had to sign a disclaimer for) will happen to me.
By the end of this month I should have finished the treatment but it will go on working for a month after that. I could feel tired during that month too. Not sure what state I will be in by then. Only time will tell.
I feel I have lost my summer and am dreading the winter weather coming round so soon.