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As you know, I have been feeling quite yucky this week, when I should have been having my treatment. Apart from the rag jacket making and very short walks I haven't done anything at all in the hope that I would pick up. I was also eating foods high in zinc as I have researched that zinc is supposed to help build up the white cells.
Harry started with a hacking cough yesterday, sneezing everywhere and I was obviously worried about the potential to disaster if I caught it. I am not normally paranoid about infections but when you have an immune system that isn't working properly it makes you wonder where it could lead to.
Harry was also upset in case he gave me a lethal dose of infection, so he put on a face mask (which had my visitors creased up with laughter.)
Because he can be very thoughtful, he decided to sleep downstairs last night and I must admit to having slept really well and it was about 6am before I realised that he was missing! Unfortunately, he said he didn't sleep very well at all. We will have to rethink that situation.
Anyway, today I feel my body is picking up and I know I am recovering.
The Minister from our church came round to see me yesterday (when I was in a much more negative frame of mind) and she did help to make me feel better and I have been practising giving my worries to God and leaving them there with him. Not easy when you are genetically predisposed to worry.
So three cheers for helpful people. Thank you everyone for prayers and positive vibes or whatever you are sending me. I do realise that I am leaning heavily on other people while I am laid low. It isn't always easy to pray for myself just now. It all seems very profound.
I often listen to the radio while I am in bed and listen to Five Live....... which is a talk show. It helps me to sleep and to ignore my tinnitis that has become very loud since chemo. I find music is too stimulating and wakes me up. This Radio Station (at night time) discusses anything that is topical in the news. Some subjects are obviously more interesting than others. However something I heard recently made me really cross.
The subject was *infidelity* and I am already reeling from the amount of people who have been *dumped* lately. Seems to be very much on the increase.
Well a woman rang in to say that she had been preparing the family wash and checked the pockets (as you do) of her husband's trousers, only to find a letter from a woman saying that "I am really glad to be carrying your baby." Just like that..... after what she considered to be eight years of happy marriage. Obviously, this woman tackled her husband about the letter and he admitted to an affair but said that it was over. The wife was (very generously I thought) thinking that there was still a chance of carrying on with the marriage when her husband then went on " but I am seeing someone else now."
This phone call was followed by a whole series of others and one from a man who said he had been cheating on his wife for years and she didn't suspect a thing. Several other men implied the same thing. What is going on? I am sure there are plenty of spouses who are completely faithful. However I am very disillusioned right now. Am I alone in that?