When I think back to that first time that Sam introduced you, things seemed really good.
I was happy for him to marry a girl from Japan...... after all, he had been living there for ten years, so it seemed a very natural thing for him to do. I was very open to your culture. I liked you from the start and looked forward to your visits.
So what has gone wrong? Is there no hope for our relationship now?
This separation is not what I wanted and not what I'd hoped for.
We shared the same house for nearly a year and there were obviously difficulties. Two women living in close proximity, sharing the same kitchen and the same bathroom.
Both of us at the opposite ends of the age range, from different cultures and both used to doing things a different way.
The differences in our temperaments were vast. By English standards I am rather reserved but by Japanese standards I must have come across as a demonstrative person who could change from cool to hot..... with a whole range of temperatures between. But I never bore a grudge.
You hid your feelings from me and your lovely dark eyes were like pools of unfathomable water and I could never understand what you were really thinking or feeling.
But I was there for you.
There is one thing that I want to thank you for, or rather two things......those beautiful granddaughters who have given me immense pleasure. From the moment I set eyes on Amber and Millie, I fell in love with them and I will be grateful to you for the rest of my life.
They are like two little rose buds who could so easily be crushed before they have a chance to open into flower. I do so want to see them flower and mature.
Kaiko......... Its the blog name that I chose for you because I liked it. The name means Forgiveness.
Can you forgive me for upsetting you? Maybe you will in time, but it may not be in my lifetime.